Times of change

So many things are changing in my life. From friends, to family, to my job and etc...
I am not sure there is not one thing that isn't changing. I am forever changing.
Being 26 is hard. I am in this no mans land of (as my mam puts it) single, and childless, and need to find friends that I can identify with. I hate risks. I know hate is a strong word but I do, I loathe it. Just thinking about it makes my heart beat a little faster and I can feel my face start to flush. I think however, that unless I do something about this situation I am in, nothing is going to change. If my desire to change is not stronger than my desire not to take risks I am afraid I am here to stay.
I recently and by recently I mean today, was my first real day at my new "position" as a full time scheduler. Your job takes up about as much as sleep takes up in your life, and they say that you should do something you love. Do I love my job? Probably not, but I do love some of the people I get to work with. I have met some of the most amazing people. Some, I can't imagine not being in my life. For that I can smile. I work with my Mam, who saves me on almost a daily basis with a hug, the words " I love you" and whatever other encouraging things I need to hear. Everywhere you go there are going to be those people that try to suck every inch of life out of you...if you let them. I am learning.
I have been experiencing the birth and death of friendships lately. I am finding out how far I will go for someone that I care about and just how far they go for me in return. I am learning that betrayal happens, and that I need to guard my heart. I've been hurt a lot lately, but I know that this is all apart of life and I am learning. People come and go, and I love the saying that they were in your life for a reason, season or a lifetime; just as you were in their life for the same.
Each day I am stronger, smarter, and a little less sensitive to what this world has to say about who and what I need to be. God is good.
One day at a time, press on my friends. This is only temporary.