just writing cause it's what I love to do.

Times like this make me remember.
The good times
The bad times
Times in between the madness.

Where the words used to spill out without coaxing.
Where the meaning behind them all, was clear.
Where the truth was.

Past
Present
Future

A new memory each day, where it overlaps another and helps heal the pain.
Where it doesn't take as much effort to wear the smile.
And to know he loves you...unconditionally.

Everything happens for a reason.

Trust Him
He always knows what He's doing.
And with that, I know I am always in good hands.
It's usually when I try to get involved, is when things start to go wrong.

Each day a brand new day.
Take it and be thankful for another day.
To be able to live and love and be free.

God is good!

What I thought...

What I thought was reality, was only a dream
What I thought I had together, was falling apart
What I thought was the truth was nothing but lies
What I thought I couldn’t achieve, was at my fingertips
What I thought would never happen, I call my life
What I thought couldn’t get worse, was never the worst
What I thought was the best for me, God knew better

In the stillness
In the quiet
In the solace
In the hush
I hear Your voice
I feel Your presence
I trust Your will
I need Your strength

no title.

Heart beats faster
Breaths become fast and shallow
Throat feels like it's closing
Stomach turning in knots
Tears form in eyes
Thoughts race through the mind

and for a moment you just might regret it.

Heart calms
Throat opens
Breaths calm
Stomach loosens
Eyes clear
Mind reassures

and just like that, you come to your senses.

.......

ONE

One chance

One shot

One try

One time

One voice

One life

One thought

One choice

One place

One reason

One season

One lifetime

just wanderings of my mind.

I just think she's real cute...and she was sitting in my shoe.

I seem to care

but I wish I didn't

I always answer

but I wish I didn't

I tell you all

but I wish I didn't

I always come back

but I wish I didn't

Facing reality...again.

I keep coming to the same conclusion...

Whether the right person reads this or not it won't matter.
Because I will never be able to tell them this anyways.
That I feel like our friendship is disposable to them.
That if we were really friends I would matter.
That if what we said to each other is how we acted, things would be different.
It might sound petty, but it's how I feel.
How I keep feeling.
Disappointed, cause I liked the way things used to be.
Sad, cause things keep changing.
I don't know you anymore.
Just a memory now.

I used to think this friendship would last...apparently I was the only one.
You have your life and I have mine.
They don't fit into each other's anymore...
And with that, I face the reality...again.
Your friendship wasn't meant to last a lifetime...just for a reason, and a season.
Was nice knowing you.
Maybe I'll see you around...someday....

I've been bejewled!

Ha, well not really but I am addicted. I am on level 38 I believe and really can't stop playing. Which I suppose is alright because I have nothing better to do. Still not working. But God is good and we will have a roof to start pretty soon. =)

So other than A LOT of doing nothing and sitting at home I have been on a couple adventures.

To start out there have been a few trips to the creek the my siSTAR(lyns) that have not been dull at all. =) I'll post pics at the end.

And, for memorial day my dad and I, along with some friends went to the coast and rode on the dunes. It was lots of fun...ate some sand and had a good time. Didn't take too many pics of that but I got some.

Other than that nothing else going on...I'll post again if anything worth reading happens. =)

So here are some pics... I think you can figure out what is what. =)