I've been very behind...

Well I haven't had much time to blog...and haven't really had the motivation either but I have some time today so I figured I would play a quick catch up.

My aunts Jolene and Lanny came to visit me for a couple weeks as a surprise for my dads 50th birthday. It was great, he was surprised and we had a great time just hanging out and enjoying the time together. We had some fun times at the coast as always. But, 2 weeks came fast and they headed back to Kansas. =( Im iss them so much and could have wished I could have came back to visit my grandma. This will be 2 years since I have seen her and she is turning 80 this year.

After heading home from the airport my dad tells me that he's thinking about sending me to Kansas to surprise my grandma on her birthday...I couldn't have been more excited! Everything worked out and 2 weeks later( right now) I sit at my aunts house in Kansas. =) I can't wait. We are throwing her a surprise party on Sunday.

Now to back track just a little. My flight out of portland left at 8:55...and you are supposed to be there a couple hours early. Which meant for us that we had to leave the house no later than 4 in the morning... Yikes! I was up at 3:30 and by 4 we headed out. Everything went fine and we made it to the airport, the lines were long so there wasn't much time to hang out with my dad so we hugged and said goodbye... I am horrible with goodbye's and even got teary eyed saying goodbye to him. Anyways, I made it through security and all that and found my gate...everything was on time. I made it to the Denver airport at 12 their time, with my next flight scheduled to leave at 2:30...well just as we were supposed to start boarding the announced it had been delayed an hour...then not to long after that they informed us that it was canceled! Ugh! I am not a happy camper by now. I had a headache and was not in the mood to continue to sit in the airport. They put me on another flight and this one left at 6:55...that's 7 hours that I had been waiting in the airport...I was just praying this flight actually left! The airline felt bad and gave me a food voucher so I didn't have to pay for my dinner...so that was nice.

We boarded and off we went. It was one of those little planes...not a big fan of that. They are ridiculously loud but atlast I made it! With my aunt there to greet me. =) It was so nice to see her again.

We got my luggage and headed to the house. She walked in and I followed and my other aunt(lanny) didn't even notice. I sat down on the couch before she over knew it was me. At that point she started laughing and was like how'd you get here!? Where Jo and I started laughing and teasing that she drove out to Oregon to get me in 20 minutes. To where she replied "oh you flew!" She was very surprised and it was nice to see her reaction. I can't wait to see the rest of the family and their faces. =)

So for now I'm just hanging out with the dog(willie.)

I'll keep you all updated.

=)

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Sometimes all it takes is a song
And it takes me back to a place
Sometimes a place I never wanted to go
And it makes me question many things.
Sometimes to a moment I would like to relive every day
And you just really never know.

What I am learning though is that you just have to be able to take one day at a time.
Tomorrow may never come so why stress about it today.
I will make it through this day and I'll take "tomorrow" when it comes.


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I've been very much behind in my updating.

I had family visiting for a couple weeks as a surprise to my dad for his 50th birthday.
The family time was great! I had really been missing them.
And if things work out I will be headed back there in a couple weeks to surprise my grandma for her 80th birthday which I am very much looking forward to. I haven' t seen them for almost 2 years. So, I think it's about time. =)

I've been living on the wrong side of memphis....

No, the title has absolutley nothing to do with anything but it was the last thing I heard on the t.v. =)

Haven't blogged in awhile...I guess just been too busy.
I have family coming in on wednesday for a surprise visit for my dads 50th birthday. So, I have stayed quite busy planning on their arrival, and a party, along with work. So, my apologies that I haven't kept up blogging.

I haven't been up to a whole lot...went to portland a few weeks ago which was nice to meet up with the gang. It doesn't happen very often.
Been working which is nice, better than doing nothing.
I've been doing lots of cleaning, it's easy to get behind...so I have stayed busy.

Down to 2 days until my aunts get here...I am very very excited, can't wait to see my dads face.

Anyways, I am off for now, I will keep you all updated with their arrival and such.

just stuff.

just writing to write,
A lot of things on my mind,
So most of this is a lot of things,
All rolled up into one,
No one specific in mind,
but prayers for all this applies to,
yes, even me.
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I wish I could tell you all the things I have on my mind.
I know things about you I wish I didn't.
All in a moments time everything has changed.
I wonder who you've become.
Where is the you I once knew.

Time changes people.
Swords are drawn.
Wedges amongst us now.

It seems as though all the important people in my life disappoint me.
Which I know is human, it's just hard to look at them the same.
They will always hold that place in my life but things just change.
I wonder why it is, that we can't let go of peoples mistakes.
Why, everytime we look at them we see the wrong they did.

No wonder people hate to admit they messed up
That they are imperfect
Because they receive the same judging eye from those that are supposed to love them the most.
No wonder a worldly friend is easier to forgive past transgressions.

Should be the other way around.
Sad that it isn't.
Since we are going to be judged in the end by the only one that matters.
Why do we feel the need to tell everyone else what they are doing wrong.
Let's have a reality check of our own lives.
Let's be accountable to ALL of our actions.

Sometimes we find ourselves wrapped up in something that seems harmless but in the end causes the worst pain.
We like it so much, and like an addiction we feel the high of it all and don't worry about the outcome it will bring.
And like addiction, we are always hurting someone. Whether our friends, family, spouse, and most importantly God.
It's not always easy to let go of these things in our life...but it is always the best when we do.


I've just had a lot of thoughts lately...needed to get them out...

Todays thoughts.

Prayers shouted out like a last request
Begging, pleading, making deals
Tears falling from her cheeks
No light at the end, no hope seems near.

All you want it change,
All you seem to ever need
Nothing comes, day after day, nothing
Harder and harder to keep yourself together

Is this what faith is all about
This feeling of despair
Nothing ever good enough
Never reaching success

I guess it’s all in your outlook
When you stop thinking for yourself
Letting go of your own ideas
Surrender and retreat

No matter how fast you run
How far you go
He’s there
You can’t escape it

You know even in your darkest of moments
And worst despair
That He hasn’t turned His back on you
And never will

So find that glimmer of light
And hold on tight
Cause no matter how long it takes
You’ll get there

Trust Him
Love Him
Obey Him
Glorify Him

That’s all there is to it.

just writing cause it's what I love to do.

Times like this make me remember.
The good times
The bad times
Times in between the madness.

Where the words used to spill out without coaxing.
Where the meaning behind them all, was clear.
Where the truth was.

Past
Present
Future

A new memory each day, where it overlaps another and helps heal the pain.
Where it doesn't take as much effort to wear the smile.
And to know he loves you...unconditionally.

Everything happens for a reason.

Trust Him
He always knows what He's doing.
And with that, I know I am always in good hands.
It's usually when I try to get involved, is when things start to go wrong.

Each day a brand new day.
Take it and be thankful for another day.
To be able to live and love and be free.

God is good!

What I thought...

What I thought was reality, was only a dream
What I thought I had together, was falling apart
What I thought was the truth was nothing but lies
What I thought I couldn’t achieve, was at my fingertips
What I thought would never happen, I call my life
What I thought couldn’t get worse, was never the worst
What I thought was the best for me, God knew better

In the stillness
In the quiet
In the solace
In the hush
I hear Your voice
I feel Your presence
I trust Your will
I need Your strength