Long Day!

Well today I had the priveledge of spending some time with the family. =)

I spent last night at the Mam's... So that I didn't have to get up twice as early to make it to town by 5:30 to leave for Lynsey's volleyball tournement in Albany.
It was real nice. I didn't get much sleep...surprise surprise. =) It was a real good day. The team did amazing and my sister played aggressive, and fabulous.

It was long but I got to see fancy pockets. =) A rooster. And we were dangerous and stole a basketball for awhile. Ha.

The day seemed like it lasted forever but it was real nice to spend it with the family.
I love them lots and I don't know what I would do without them. I'm thankful they claim me. ;)

*Cheers* Here's to the New Year.

I'd just like to say that venting is the best! Especially when something amazing comes from it. =)


I'd like to hope that this will be the end of the nonsense....however, I have the feeling it is only the beginning. So let's all pray that this passes quickly and people move on. Life's too short to have such ugly feelings...and besides by the time you want to act on those feelings it wouldn't be worth it to involve the law. ;)

Thank you Lord for 2009...this is the year that I eliminate people and I say what I need to. No more shy, quiet, passive Jessica... welcome to the new me. Who knows what I deserve and what I don't and will NOT let people walk all over me.

It's going to be a tough and trying year...but God is good and that is all I need to keep a smile on my face.

How dare you....

So, most of you that are reading this hopefully know me... and know me well enough to see that I am shy and quiet most of the time and like to sit back. I don't so much like to be the center of attention and I certainly don't tell you what I am thinking unless provoked.

So with that.... this is what I have to say.


I am real angry!
I mean...I guess I might be over reacting just a bit because I am not actually involved in the latest predicament....however, I LOVE my family. They may not be blood family but they are as close as it gets for me! I would do anything I could for them.

So when you go talking about them, LYING about them, and saying hurtful things I am obviously going to have something to say about it.

I wanna know who this lady thinks she is. I mean seriously!!! Jumping down someones throat without all the facts, bad mouthing the daughter of whom you are speaking to AND having the nerve to say that pretty much their parenting sucks...that it is lacking! AND that you and your child are not being Christ- like!

Excuse me!!!
Get a clue lady!
You need a reality check!
Your daughter is the gossip queen of the youth and a liar!
That's right, I said it, and I will say it again! LIAR!

Don't be critisizing someone elses family, parenting, and life when you can't even get a hold of and control your own!



Okay, so I vent here...cause well it is just better than in this persons face cause I know that, that would be wrong. So if this all comes across real bad, sorry...but I had to say it to someone...

I love my family.
I got their back!
=)

Change...

So life has been all about change lately.


Friends
Family
Future
Myself

You name it and I am pretty sure it has changed.

A lot for the good, I think…and yet some for the bad

I am not real sure how to categorize it all…
All I know is that I am starting to freak out a little with all that is going to take place.
I know that I need to leave it at the Father’s feet but I am really struggling with this part. =(

For most things I am happy for the change, I welcome it with open arms…
When certain things change I am okay with it, but when I have to step beyond my boundaries I get a little nervous. I don’t want them to change.

I am a worrier. I can’t help it. I want to fix and make everything better for anyone I can…and when I can’t I just stress.

Well I am at that point…the stress part where there is no turning back now. I know that there is nothing I can do to fix things yet it is tearing me up. I want so badly for things to be good. Not to have to worry about tomorrow…but I can’t be like that…It feels like that day will never come.

I’m just overwhelmed…with lots of things…and I probably don’t even make sense.

Sorry….

Walk down memory lane. =)

So Saturday I got to meet up with an old friend, Stefanie.

It really had been too long since we had gotten together...but it was great. It was just like old times and it was great to laugh like that again.

The long deep conversations to the crazy and wild pictures. =)

It was so nice to feel like we went back in time to where we seemed so care free and had nothing to worry about.

So thanks my friend...for the friendship, the laughs, the pictures, and the memories. =)

Random!!!

A sunset like this...and everything makes sense.

Lots going on lately...

Seems like I can't escape from it.

I try to distance myself...

Seems like it never works.

It's over my head, Lord I need you.

I'm looking for the place,

Seeking out my refuge.

catch up real quick.

So this picture is of the the winchester dam...and the fish ladder that is full of water. It was crazy to see how much water was rushing through...and the logs it was bringing with it. Funny how one drop is so small but when you put a bunch together what it can do.


These are fire pictures....we had a rather large bonfire on New Years...that actually started on Monday...and we still have wood left over.

I'm starting the year off well I think...moving on and starting fresh!

I'm excited for this year and what it shall bring. God is good...All the time. =)